Really Bad at Blogging

I see all these blog sights and wonder at the discipline it takes to do every day. I am just not that kind of person. After reading my last blog, I can tell you the week at the beach was awesome! A week with the family, no fights, just good fun. So what's been going on since then? Eva turned 13. She's the usual sullen teenager who gets offended if she feels we are invading her privacy. She dates a 16 year old boy on occasion who she tries to hide from us then gets offended that we are upset about her dating the 16 year old boy. Obviously the problem isn't the boy, but the fact that Eva feels the need to keep him a secret. She's also gotten involved with a gang, which I still don't know the details because she's not talking to us about it. The other big issue is that she is cutting herself. That's the most heart-wrenching. I expected her to be dishonest and secretive, she's always been that way even if her father never realized it. But to mutilate herself. I suppose I should have seen it coming. The way she's always wanting to change her hair...a friend once told me that is a sign of someone who can potentially turn into a self-mutilator. We don't know what is going on with her since she's told us she is not being honest or trust-worthy with us. And she refuses to speak about any of it. What she does tell us about her frustrations are things that everyone deals with and we've tried to explain to her that it is something she will always deal with and she needs to find alternative ways to calm down. Harming herself does not make her life better. She is getting counseling, but she's only had one official session so far so we'll see if it helps or not. I pray that it does. Meanwhile, I lost my job in November and have yet to find another one. We've been able to get along fine but now all the money I had squirreled away is gone. So the pressure is on. I was hoping we could get through the summer, save on daycare and all that stuff. But I'm not sure if we can do that or not. Having a roommate who is not contributing but is simply consuming is starting to get on my nerves. I just don't appreciate the guy helping himself to whatever he wants and acting pissed because I don't have the money to buy food for lunch. I didn't realize when I allowed him to move into my home that I would have to share everything with him and get nothing in return. He is supposed to give us $100 a week and so far this year we've gotten $372. Yes, I am a bit bitter about this situation. I'm not sure what to do about it. On a positive note, my husband and I have quit smoking!!!! It's not as hard for me since he doesn't smoke around me and I've not been around other smokers since I quit. I've realized that not having a job is not a good thing for me. I need stimulation. Maybe I'll start blogging. I like the food blogs. But I wish I could be creative and come up with my own recipes. My fear is that most of my stuff is just like everyone else's. Well, until next time......oh, Riley is just as hyper as ever! He's in Pre-K at a school that I really love, but he'll be going somewhere else next year. I only hope it will be just as good.