My Pal Joe

My pal Joe is going through a life changing event right now. He is trying to lose weight, not just 20 or 30 pounds, but a couple hundred pounds. He is laying it all out there for everyone to read and judge as they will. But I hope he understands that his friends aren't judging him, we are cheering him on as we always do for a friend in need. I hope he knows how inspirational he is being to me. He speaks of going on binges, and while my binges pale in comparison to his, they are still binges. For me, eating an entire bag of Hot Fries is a binge...it's not really about WHAT you eat or HOW MUCH you eat, it's all about your emotional and mental well being that first LEAD to the binging that is important. He has had 4 very good days and I know how rewarding that can be. It may seem silly to think I can proud of myself for not pulling into Arby's to get those chicken shakers with the buffalo sauce, but I ultimately KNOW I will regret it later. I've only done that one once and the other time I even THOUGHT about it, I did not have the cash. So I couldn't claim that as a victory, just a happenchance that I was unable to avoid. Ah well, if I could only motivate myself to exercise. I would love to join Weight Watchers since my mother has done a FANTASTIC job with that for the last 3 years. And I'd love to join a gym, but alas, our financial circumstances do not allow for such trivial expenses. Until next time...

Business Trips

Ok, my hubby is out of town on business. Last night he sends me a text saying they are lost. Then nothing....nada....not even an "luv u" or "g'night". get up in the morning, check my phone, nothing! send him a text asking if he's alive....NOTHING! CALL HIM, yeah, he's fine, gonna be late, gotta run. it's almost 10pm and i guess he's just tooooooo busy to call his wife. does he realize he has a wife? or am i just the babysitter/cook/laundress/maid???? JEEZ! can i say PISSED OFF! the dude can text faster than anyone i know and i know it doesn't take but a half a second for him to send me a message saying..."call ya later", "going to grab dinner", "how was ur day?", gasp.."miss u" but no, he's appearantly WWWAAAAYYYY to busy to even give me a second thought. asshole.

Lean Days

My dear husband left for Boston today. We have exactly $107 to spend over the next 2 weeks in our bank account, and my husband is expected to pay for all his meals up front. How will we survive this mess? I have no idea! We are supposed to go to my parents house next week, but that will take the entire $107 just to get down there. I hate money. It has become increasingly more difficult to make it day by day. We got into credit card troubles when my husband AND HIS BROTHER opened their own restaurant. We used to be able to pay the bills, but not any more. Well, I guess that means the kids and I will be eating nothing but pasta for the next 2 weeks. We can't afford to buy any food, but I'll have to get milk at some point in time. Sheesh, and my boss is STILL convinced there is nothing wrong with the economy!

My Other Half

I love my husband dearly. But I worry that he will never have a stable long term job. We've been together for nearly 5 years and he's held 4 jobs since I've met him. Now he's saying if another offer comes along, he'll take it, but only if there's more money involved. I understand that we need more money, actually I wish we needed less money. We are barely making ends meet and this is causing us to get behind on several credit cards that once we could easily pay. I just cannot fathom how to handle this situation and he seems to feel like, "If we can't pay it, don't worry about it." Obviously, I am the one paying the bills, not him!

Now I found out he's going out of town for a week for a training session. Thankfully, his job is covering the expenses! But once again this leaves me to do everything by myself...not that it'll be that different, I just have to add the mammoth dog to my list of duties. Ah well, perhaps something good will come out of all this. Meanwhile, I'll just take one day at a time!